Death according to Lazarus...

Today, at the gym, I ran into my most recent ex. I was polite, he was polite. He doesn't belong, a friend of his just joined, he was there as a guest. I ended it and we ended it nicely enough...still there was a reason I broke up with him...twice. I had dated him when I was younger, prettier, and skinnier. There was a good reason for breaking up with him then, too. I was not at most attractiveness at the gym, so that was disappointing. I forgot all about weighing myself, which is okay...I'll do it next Monday.

So lately I have been trying to lead a more conscience life. It has recently been brought to my attention that I have thus far been living life unconsciously. Repeating a history that is not even mine, but has been laid out for me. So in an effort to live life more consciously I focus on what I am most thankful for each day.

Today I am so supremely happy and grateful for treadmills, hot showers, Bath and Body Works shower gel, Aveda Brilliant shampoo and conditioner, and - cool, crisp, clean water.

Most of all I am grateful for YOU. I am grateful I found you. I am grateful you always bring the funny and make me laugh. You are a gift indeed.